Shawn, as I write this. I am sure you already know that your sister Angela died this past week on April 12 in Glenwood Springs, CO, where she had lived for the past 25 years. I am beyond grief, first you left so suddenly and now Angela, just as sudden. There are no words to convey the deep, deep pain that is within. I do know that you two are together and perhaps friends, once again, as you were when you were small children. As your sister, Carolyn said through her tears, "Mom there were FIVE of us and now there are only three" and I had thought the same just moments before she said it. I will not be able to write much now, the pain is just too difficult. But I shall now call this blog "Songs of Shawn and Angela". I am doing my very best to try and understand how a Mother can lose two of her children in less than two years. I have to say that, at the moment, I find it totally unfathomable. Dear little Angela, such a private person and harboring her pain, her life, for all those years. Perhaps now she, as you, have found the peace that both of you sought for so many years on this earth. I choose to believe this because I do not think I could hold together if I were to believe any differently. I treasure the comfort and prayers given by my friends and especially from Laurel whom I met through her blog. She has followed along on this, your 'song' since it began and therefore she knows the deep pain that I have written on your leaving us. I must quit for now, Shawn, please tell Angela hello for me and that I always loved her just as I have you.
I love you,
Your Mama