a bit of an 'awful' while! I keep asking myself what am I doing wrong, am I sabotaging myself? If so, how and why? I cannot seem to move forward, I keep slipping further down the tunnel and wondering how I managed to get into all of this mess! But more importantly, how do I get out of it! I pray, oh, how I pray to lead me, show me and yes, help me. As I said, my situation just continually goes awry and I stare in wonder how does this happen. I give, and I try to help whomever needs it and (as Laurel said) I keep coming out looking like the bad guy. And I'm tired...just plain weary of it all. I keep thinking that I'll awaken and everything will be 'straight'...so far it hasn't happened. I know there are answers, I just haven't found them yet. Maybe I am not listening 'hard' enough...I'm not expecting a miracle, altho' Lord knows, I need one, but just some respite, some peace of mind from what I see as an insurrmountable situation.
At the moment...strange, I can think of no ending for this.